I took a glance through all my old journal entries and I realized something. I was such a bad writer when I was younger. I couldn't even bother to finish a word before moving on to the next and that IRRITATES me when someone does that. I can understand when you're in a hurry but really? You're a proper human being that can use higher brain functions and you decide to do that? I don't know what I was thinking...

Anyways, back to the topic at hand... I feel so old. At the age of sixteen (almost 17), I'm just that much closer to the next chapter of my life (Budha, it's college time...) and it amazes me when I revert back to the spoiled little child who didn't get what she wanted. There are times when I want something so bad that I insist on it everyday. Then my parents agree, finally, and make me believe that I'd actually get it, two hours away from said thing happening (actually getting the chance to maybe get my license). Next thing I know, they go around and say: "Oops! Nevermind, we can't do it! We're too busy playing around that we can't make time for this! Sorry, sweetie!" I'm sorry if this makes me sound like a little bitch but what the fuck? Did you not just say that it would happen?

Gugh... This just frustrates the living hell out of me... I feel too old to be throwing a tantrum but the urge is there. In fact, I'm pretty sure I threw a mini one before common sense snuck up on me and slapped my face with a pointe shoe, an old, dirty, smelly one with the block still in it. I'm going to college in a little over a year and here I am, crying and kicking my feet because I didn't get what I want. My mind's like this little old Asian guy that's been sitting on a mountain getting wisdom through osmosis through his forehead and the rest of me is like the four year old girl that's just been refused the chance to meet a real live Disney princess in the Magic Kingdom. It's so weird...

Anyways, when I look back on the, oh, 4 hours it's been, I see that there really was no choice and that I was overreacting. My parents could've gotten stuck in the snow somewhere.

The old Asian dude won out from the little girl. Obviously. Doesn't mean I'm still not frustrated with the whole situation.